Some quotes from authors about why they write:

First, Terry Farish, author of a lovely book called The Good Braider. In this book, Farish uses lyric prose to experience the world through the eyes of another person, and her statement about why she writes reflects this exploration: 

In the introduction of The Gifts of Imperfection, author Brene Brown writes about the process of how she decided to write such a book. I love Brene Brown and I LOVE this book, but I already worry about what I'm writing being worthwhile, so I'm not sure I want to ask myself this! Is it necessary to worry about the worth of something? Is it enough to have the story and the impulse to draft and revise and share it?

Author Barry Lopez seems to have less concern on considering the worth or merit of a piece of writing and instead embraces stories to care for and share as needed. The gentleness and openness of his philosophy is such a restful place in which to create.

In Rainbow Rowell's Fangirl, the protagonist, Cath, is a dedicated fanfiction writer and new college student reluctant to try writing anything original. In chapter two, Cath's creative writing classmates are discussing why they write:
"To explore new worlds." "To explore old ones." "To set ourselves free."
But while the class is throwing out ideas, Cath is thinking:
"To get free of ourselves...To stop being anything or anywhere at all...To disappear."

Later, in chapter 23, Cath's English professor talks to her directly about writing. Cath has still not tried writing anything original. I love their debate (in part, below) because it illustrates that there are so many ways to be immersed in writing. I think Cath's love of writing fanfiction is not less worthy than writing original work, but it's definitely a different process.​

For over a decade, I have been dabbling with writing as a kind of hobby--mostly working on a young adult novel and children's picture books. I've also done a lot of journaling as a way to try understanding myself and the world. And of course, most of my jobs have involved writing: quarterly summaries, incident reports, departmental support via email, etc. Recently, I decided to try focusing more on writing, to see if it was something I really wanted to do vocationally. But on which kind did I want to focus? Non-fiction, such as SEO or other types of ghostwriting, or even articles for magazines? Or memoir-type essays? Or fiction? 

So of course I started trying to do ALL of the ideas. And after a couple of months of that, I can report that is NOT working. There are so many things milling around in my head that they are crowding each other out. I go round in circles and sometimes end up doing NONE of the ideas.

Which one, then, should be the focus? Would it help if I knew why I want to write?

Six months ago, I would have said I want to write fiction because it's more fun than my day-job. Wouldn't it be great to have a fun job? But since I'm now trying to understand the writing urge and my place in the writing world, I have not just been exploring other types of writing, but other reasons to write besides enjoyment. So far I have collected the following reasons (and please note that these aren't necessarily my reasons!):

• To have a creative outlet.
• To have fun, a hobby, or a way to relax.
• Because you are obsessed with writing (or at least with your specific writing project).
• Because it's on your bucket list to see if you can write a book. 
• To understand or make sense of the world or your own thoughts.
• To ask a question and try to answer it.
• To discover something.
• To understand another point of view, possibly creating empathy for yourself and others.
• To entertain.
• To enlighten or teach.
• Because you like the feeling of having never-ending homework.
• Because whenever you write, you find out something new about yourself. 
• To vent.
• To get revenge.
• To remember and/or to help others remember.
• To record information/share information.
• To get attention.
• To try and impress someone.
• To promote literacy.
• Because it's your therapy.
• Because it's your happy place.
• To expose hidden information.
• To perpetuate wrong information/ propaganda; to confuse/manipulate.
• To share your personal story.
• Because your job requires it. 
• Because your school requires it.
• To connect with other people.
• To sell something.
• To influence others.
• To escape.
• To create another world and go live in it.
• To convince others of your point of view.
• Because you would rather write than do anything else.
• Because you like to give your brain a good workout.
• To encourage.
• To change the world.
• To share your story with your family or the world.
• Because your horoscope for this year told you that you would write a book.
• Because you couldn't find the kind of book you wanted so you decided to write it.
• To be understood; to be seen and heard for who you really are. 
• To challenge yourself.
• To make a living.
• To earn extra money. 
• To let your alter-ego out to play, let your freak fly, let your dark side out.
• Because someone once told you that you'd make a great author.
• Because you are bored.
• Because you can't think of any other kind of job you'd rather do.
• To be rich and famous.
• To win prizes.
• Because you find the process of writing fascinating. 
• Because you love words and how they fit together and how they sound together and you could just rearrange word magnets on the fridge all day every day and be a happy camper.

GAH! That's a lot of possible reasons. Not really helping pick a focus, but quite a bit further along in my writing quest than "I want to write because it's fun!"

I guess it's silly of me to have assumed simplicity with this task--what in life worth doing is ever simple, after all? The list above is making my head spin, and for practical reasons, I do need to focus, so for now I'm going to do what I usually do in trying to figure things out: I'm going to see how I feel about it.

Day-job writing hasn't been particularly creative, but it's usually been satisfying in that it's complete in a short time, and connecting in that someone else usually reads it right away. 

The process of journaling is therapeutic,  engaging, and freeing and I usually feel amazing when I'm done.
 
Writing essays/short stories is engrossing, but halfway through I often blob out, thinking that this couldn't possibly be interesting or useful to anyone. 

Writing children's books feels silly and light.
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And working on my novel...that's the most complex one--that's a rollercoaster writing experience. Fun, maddening, engrossing, surprising. And also the one that I can't stay away from. No matter how long I've gone between drafts or how crazy-making it is, I always come back to it. 

So maybe that's enough for now. Maybe I don't need to define it or know exactly why I want to write. Maybe it's enough to acknowledge that something compels me to do it, to come back to it, to stick with it. So I will.

Why do you write?